hey bloggy....... i know nobdy readz u.... so i wld lyk to tel u evryting im feelin..... im really lonely. im scared for maslf.... ma hormonez r jumpin in me accordin to each situation... im feelin sick . actually im tryin to b normal each n evrytym ... bt smetymz ma thoughtz ovrtke me n i fall apart... dere s nobdy to undrstnd me here xcpt god. im unable to xpress maslf nw. im scared of evry little ting arnd me. til strday i ws fine... i ws tinkin tat de day ws sooo good. bt 2dy i cried for de ntire day n dnt know y..... thoughtz abt tat guy s hauntin me each n evry breath i tke... i try to b normal bt smetymz i break down wen ma immunity to fight wid tat thought bcomez low.... he s supr normal infact he s lyk he nvr knew me smetymz... bt me?????? strday i saw a korean muvie "a moment to remembr".. in tat muvie de girl diez ot of alhzimerz disease which s a mental death... ppl vil slowly start forgettin as der neuronz degenerate... i wish i too gt such disease coz i wnt to erase each n evry thought related wid him... itz killin me evry sec .... dyin at once s bettr dan dyin each tym... at tymz im scared if i go physic... ma parentz love me alot bt i keep cryin for tiz asshole .... tiz s wad s calld as fate.... ma fate oly bonded me wid him n divided me wid him.... do i need councellin??? is ma condition so recked up tat i need a councellin...... god gve me chance to live!!!!! tat asshole spoilt ma lyf n tuk away ma happiness leavin me as a dead soul....nobdy cld undrstnd tiz.......... i smile wid tearz in ma heart evryday which s nt normal...


to b continued..................